my knee is in so much pain. surgery sucks. i bet those doctors don’t even feel bad for having kept me up all night doubled over in excruciating pain. god what is life

tonights kiiiiinda been some sort of epiphany for me, weird as that sounds. I realized that sometimes its not about living for the now. Sometimes it actually is living for the future. After realizing that my first semester grades are gonna be terrible, i now know that i gotta buckle my shit down second semester. I worried too much about forming relationships with people who turned out to be assholes in the end, instead of what direction i wanted my life to head into. I’ve now got my good college friends and can focus on the workload. I’m gonna try and work as hard as possible and be the best person I can be and I’m so excited to finally put forth the effort and create things that I’m proud of. The future is actually bright for one fucking time in my life and I can’t possibly express how excited I am. So now the plan is set and in motion. Finish college the best person I can possibly be. Then, intern and do bitch work for a studio which I’m completely down to do. Then, as we discussed earlier tonight, move out to Los Angeles with my best friend, who helped me get through so much of this shit, more than he will ever know. And finally start my career. Get ready folks, cause hopefully you’re gonna see this kids name after the final, pivotal scene as the credits start to roll.